Holidays

We celebrated Christmas with David and Michelle on Sunday. Tomorrow we will video chat with Bekah and Nick. Maybe talk to my dad and sister.

Family spread out all over the place. Not like it used to be when we lived in CA and the whole family lived within 60 miles of each other.  Or even when we lived in Vegas and the kids and I drove down.  Everyone went to mom & dads for every holiday and watched 9 wild kids run around like crazy. Sometimes a foster baby or two to cuddle. Gift opening was always insane! I usually went home with a headache from all the noise. Nothing Tylenol couldn't help. Then a couple hours later, mom would call me, missing everyone, and we'd talk about the day and she'd mention some dish she'd forgot to put out for the meal.

Those holidays were always epic; most good, some not so good, all of them mellowed with time. I used to swear I'd never miss them. LOL Now I ache for them. Mostly, I ache for my mom, and my dad (the way he used to be).

I know things have to change. It is inevitable. But no one said I have to like it.